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Lt. Col Sabine Alshire ([personal profile] bondingalchemy) wrote2010-07-04 08:10 am

86th Transmutation. -- [locked to Greg]

Honey?

I know we probably shouldn't do this, not when tensions are so high, but...

Want to go hang out in our secret spot? It'd probably help ease your mind off of things. I can help you disguise yourself so that you don't have any suspicious people on your trail.

Let me know, okay?

[identity profile] whoshotsherlock.livejournal.com 2010-07-04 09:15 pm (UTC)(link)
Finitevus isn't really an issue anymore, hun. I don't need to hide.

And I'm fine...

[identity profile] bondingalchemy.livejournal.com 2010-07-05 07:31 pm (UTC)(link)
Well, okay.

Greg, how long have I known you? You're not exactly fine.

[identity profile] whoshotsherlock.livejournal.com 2010-07-05 09:05 pm (UTC)(link)
What do you expect me to say? How many people got hurt because of me, Sabine? I can't just ignore it this time...

[identity profile] bondingalchemy.livejournal.com 2010-07-05 10:06 pm (UTC)(link)
I know you can't, but I, and other people, would love to help you out, dear.

[identity profile] whoshotsherlock.livejournal.com 2010-07-05 10:09 pm (UTC)(link)
How? The damage is done. I can't... I can't fix this...

[identity profile] bondingalchemy.livejournal.com 2010-07-05 10:09 pm (UTC)(link)
Wanna know the first step to how to fix it? The General gave it to me after the first civil war.

[identity profile] bondingalchemy.livejournal.com 2010-07-05 10:12 pm (UTC)(link)
You pick yourself up from the ground and dust yourself off. The first step is learning how to forgive yourself.

[identity profile] whoshotsherlock.livejournal.com 2010-07-05 10:16 pm (UTC)(link)
... I don't know if I can do that.

[identity profile] bondingalchemy.livejournal.com 2010-07-05 10:22 pm (UTC)(link)
Am I that easily forgotten now?

[identity profile] whoshotsherlock.livejournal.com 2010-07-05 10:24 pm (UTC)(link)
What? No... of course not... I just...

I don't think there's any redeeming me for this. I came back for my own selfish reasons. The reason everything fell apart is because of me, Sabine. I can't just pretend it didn't happen.

[identity profile] bondingalchemy.livejournal.com 2010-07-05 10:27 pm (UTC)(link)
I know that.

Just... [ She pauses, trying to hold back her own frustration. ]

I'm trying to help, okay? Please let me try to help you with this.

[identity profile] whoshotsherlock.livejournal.com 2010-07-05 10:40 pm (UTC)(link)
Maybe you shouldn't... I know you want to, but I have to face up to the fact that I... I got people I care about hurt. Badly. If I'd never gone back Finitevius wouldn't have caught on...

[identity profile] bondingalchemy.livejournal.com 2010-07-11 09:36 pm (UTC)(link)
Greg... [ She hates to sound desperate here, really. But that, added with frustration is making her sound exactly like that. ]

[identity profile] whoshotsherlock.livejournal.com 2010-07-11 09:39 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm sorry... I know you want to help... [at least he's not completely shoving her away]

[identity profile] bondingalchemy.livejournal.com 2010-07-11 09:43 pm (UTC)(link)
So, then, why won't you let me?

[identity profile] whoshotsherlock.livejournal.com 2010-07-11 09:53 pm (UTC)(link)
I... don't feel like I deserve it.

[identity profile] bondingalchemy.livejournal.com 2010-07-11 09:56 pm (UTC)(link)
[...]

[ Deep breaths, Sabine. Deep. Breaths. ]

Greg, how many times have you helped me deal with my PTSD?

[identity profile] whoshotsherlock.livejournal.com 2010-07-11 10:00 pm (UTC)(link)
Isn't this... a lot different? I don't even have an excuse for my actions...

[identity profile] bondingalchemy.livejournal.com 2010-07-11 10:02 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm trying to help and you're pushing me away... Dammit, this isn't just your burden. If we're engaged, that means that we share each other's pain, right?

[identity profile] whoshotsherlock.livejournal.com 2010-07-11 10:08 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't want to hurt you... if Sara doesn't wake up, or... worse... I-I don't know if I could handle it...

[identity profile] bondingalchemy.livejournal.com 2010-07-11 10:10 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't care if you hurt me. I'm always here for you, and... like I've been saying, I just want to help.

[identity profile] whoshotsherlock.livejournal.com 2010-07-11 10:12 pm (UTC)(link)
I know... I just don't know what to do...

[identity profile] bondingalchemy.livejournal.com 2010-07-11 10:13 pm (UTC)(link)
Then let me in and we'll work on this together.

[identity profile] whoshotsherlock.livejournal.com 2010-07-11 10:16 pm (UTC)(link)
... I haven't gone to see her yet.

[identity profile] bondingalchemy.livejournal.com 2010-07-13 02:33 am (UTC)(link)
Well, that's the first step. Want to go see her now?

[identity profile] whoshotsherlock.livejournal.com 2010-07-13 05:20 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah. Sure...